Illusion of Yesterday

Did I address all those trouble, the secret buried deep in my soul
Did I walk the right way, I felt it dark and cold.

I'm trying to heal from a mystery mind, running around, troubling time
I take a step ahead, here I am back to yesterday.

A shadow light, a rush of plight, I turn to my side,I break the rules I can't abide.
My mother said I can win if I learn to try, she doesn't understand if I win my heart dies.

It's such a shame I can't comprehend, the fiction of my tragic life, isolation turning to illusion and I hang by the trail.
I look ahead, a beauty queen waiting to love me, but I'm just stuck here in yesterday.

Rewind

I sometimes wonder if I ever cross your mind,
Maybe you keep your heart closed as a blind.

It's 4 in the morning and I see no dreams that we last,
Crazy, I am awake and maybe you're just stuck in your past.

Trying to tell you, in moments we spend love,
Fighting our shadows and finding a place where it's never dark.

Wait for me sunshine, I am not here forever until you put me back to life,
Keep off our reasons, far from the seasons and kiss goodbye.

Once again it's winters and I am wondering, if we have frozen all our warmth in our hearts.
Let's just rewind all we had to the start!!.

Blasphemy

Lights all around, shadow over life, 

Petrified and desolate, I run to just hide.

The Hallows calling my name from way beyond the street,

Wherever I go the darkness never seem to leave.

A melodic rush in the air, very shallow yet so clear

Am I just so tired or is it my despair?

All I know now that I can't run any long, the misery of joy is just prolonged. 

It's time for you to fear, I will haunt you all your life, now that I am back from six feet under my dear.

Before I die

It's November again, the rains have stopped, and I am awake.
Let myself sink in your eyes, where the rains stopped by.
I don't know if that's right or just another mistake.

I remember that face but then I see you,
I thought her's was mine, and so I cried.
So if tonight I ask you, will yours be true.
I know she lied, will you be the same even If I tried.

I wouldn't care what I feel, if I'd make sense to you,
Baby can we stop playing this game and live in our hearts,
It will take a lot of courage for me and for you too.
Wouldn't you try once if I say I would be there till I fall apart.

It's November again, the rains have stopped, and I am awake.
Let myself sink in your eyes, where the rains stopped by.
I don't if that's right or just another mistake.

Emancipation

Changed seasons, changed cities, changed whatever I shouldn't be,
Couldn't change the only thing
You and me.

Lassitude surrounded,  A poignant aura all around,
I thought this would last forever, never, and unbound.

Thunder and rains passed by my heart,
I hid my self in isolation
Claustrophobia, hallucination, grief all crept in, only for redemption.

I broke that chain and held its hand, not by thought, only desperation
Maybe you're doing well too but I living life with compassion

Heartbeat

I don't know if I am writing this with a broken heart or a lonely mind,
But I am just trying to let you know that nothing you did was kind.

And if I survive this storm tonight, maybe tomorrow I shall let you know about this fight,
Or if you prayed so hard to wish me die then I would hold on you tight.

I have been here before and this seems so sureal,
I scream, I cry, I curse, I pray for what that's there inside to die tonight and rot in hell.

Nothing seems to go well.

So I just run through that narrow bridge which once I crossed to see us meet,
How do you run that memory lane where every step is my heartbeat.

Breaking Arlette (celtique)

Weren't you compassionate, inspiring, fell in love, loved through your heart?
Funny that every word and thought lingers around that crazy part.

Hallowed in the darkest thoughts, you resist to claim what's always yours.
The wheel of faith will soon disappear and some facts you will endure.

So my dear you took a stand as the chambers of sorrow failed to hold,
These few words should have said when your heart once silently told.

The leaves that fell and the life that died wasn't it a gloomy night? Oh! You missed that or maybe you held too tight.
The river that drowned you once with all your desires once, it has forgotten its  depths to the shallows and gone are your desires to the mud.

That reminds me of the oath thy so scared to break.
So take my hand this last time, for I know you still wish for a better death,
It's time that we together break this arlette.

Until Goodnight

Remorse all around, dejected and ruined.
The clock ticks with time and I petrified.
I believe I could change me,tame me to give a damn.
Somethings are just so good surreal, reality chokes them to death.

I ran down to my heart once, pleading to make me believe,
That night when it turned me down, I knew the colour of blood was bleak.
So I lay still since just too see, who woke you up and made me sick.

All believed the beloved, I was astray
To make you look into my heart, maybe this is what is takes.
Lift the veil and show your face, for even if you lie tonight, nothing's gonna change.

I knew you then and I know you know,
All the time you surrendered before letting me down.
The smile I stare and dream to live, you let me not close to one such thing.
Play me now if you dare to cry, I have opened those pages where your last words were goodbye.

Hell Hath No Fury

Believe me when I say I saw apocalypse in her tears,
Ignorant, and arrogant were my sarcasm,
Every time I close my eyes and I hear those screams of fear.
I ran, I fell and fell down the cataclysm.

Irony of her love I felt, joy of my pain made her day,
Till today I fail to solve the mystery of her powers,
Her agony of joy just drifted me away.
Words I had were just washed by showers.

Save me dear and spare my life,
I yell, I cry and I know the end is near,
Your wrath has come, let follow your verdict to die.
She did not kill me then, but I still live in those fears.

The Curls of Enigma

I guess it's still that déjà vu, "I have met you somewhere" I feel,
With my dreams so ambitious, and the fears that I hide,
I will conceal all the mystery those beautiful curls reveal
Life is not a game of hearts and to that I abide.

I wish you could read faces that would have made my heart so light,
Future is certain but not everlasting as they say,
So I keep wishing for a dream of yours, at least for tonight
But wish and dreams just turn to dust as the night awaits the day.

Now that this is what I can do my best,
Wait for a summer and just put time to test.
I'll hope to see and love those twirls
One day I will reaveal the enigma of those curls.

Love Delusion

Late in the night she whispered into my ears, I dare to open my eyes.
The tricks she had were magical though rested on lies.

The breeze above my head became cold, the whiskey kept my body warm but my heart frozen as ice
There she stood to embrace me in her arms, I reached for her unaware of her disguise.

Her lips touched mine and I dissolved in love, an agony fell upon me that night, a tale I live this far
'Serendipity' I call that night, still left disguised, she taught me love and left me with a scar.

Since then till date I fear those lips and haunt her hymn that made me lure,
The tricks she knew I learned it fast, 

her tricks were real to let you know, 

I open my eyes and find myself faking love as disguised as her.