Judai (HINDI)

  


Thoda sa haasi, thodi is khushi, fir se jab tu roothi. Na jane kyu laga ki aj kash tu sath
hoti.

Dhoondta raha main apni tanhai mein tujhe, sochta raha kaise bhula do main tujhe.

Aisa kya hai jo tu door jati nai, aj samaj aya meri dhakan mein teri yaad hai jo andar
samata nai.

Kabhi tu mile to yeh bhool na jana. Maar bhi gaya to rahunga tera deewana.

Yeh gaam agar judai ka pata hota mujhe, kabhi na de baithta apna dil tujhe.

Par ab kuch aisa alam hai, tanhai mein jeene ke param anand hai. Apne hal pe na chorde 
mujhe, aj bhi utna hi pyar karta hu tujhe.

Catastrophe

  

I know I am late and you have gone through a lot of hardships in the past few months,

Where was I?? looking at you but never asked once.

You were promised and you were deprived,
Believe that the right time has not arrived.

With a heart so pure and smile to bright,
Nothing in your life never went right!!

You walked in my life with a mission mount,
And all the time you are there, I just count.

With a mom so brave and your will so strong,
Nothing in your life will ever go wrong.

You are special to me, and its very true,
I could have never been me without you.

You care for me more than I thought,
And that to me,  means a lot.

We are friends, but we mean much more.
Like the oceans too deep, shallow at the shore.

I wish to be your favorite part,
To me? You already are!

I find no word to let you know,
You will find me, wherever you go.

The way we got close to each other, in the past few days,
I have started to believe, my lord has mightier ways.

I don't find the word to define what's between you and me,
And that's the catastrophe.

Are You Dead

    

Good to see you. See how quietly I lay,

I promise to use no big words, how have I been without you is what I say.

 One fine Monday morning, I went out to see,
The Sun was bright and shining on me.

With you on my head the previous night,
The day was calling me to fight!

Strong enough within my heart,
Was prepared to be hurt!

I found a little shady place,
And thought of taking rest.

Soon the day began to end,
And my dreams began to tend.

I found myself all alone,
And the time has all flown.

Traces of shadows on my mind,
Searched for love, hoped to find.

The night was silent and covered in dark,
I was wasted and did not find a mark.

With hopes no high and dreams no big,
Life had not left me a fig.

I found my love and that is all,
Just watch me cry and see me fall.

OR

 Let me die and rest in peace,
For one last breath let me ease.

Going Back To The Corners

Going back to the corners, where I first saw you! 

Hope to see you again and spend a moment or two. 

Its been so long and our hearts have dried, to live back those moments when we both tried.

Just once chance to bid you good-bye and live back our lives, going back to the corners where that eloquent silence cries.

Blowing with the winds, crossing lines, I left it there, since then nothing changed except time,

All that I had then were diamonds but never mine. 

Going back to the corners, the roads, the hills, I and you with the bliss of wine. 

To see you now and let you know, hearts have changed and we live our lives,

Going back to the corners where innocence survived. 

Under that bridge the light still shines, but we have drawn our own lines.

See how well we have walked the roads, which once for us were very hard.

Feelings that were then our very own, going back to the corners, all is gone. 

Still Breathing

Do you believe that I am lost for you are not any more??Its true what you feel inside, and I will never find a shore.The Icy cold sea and the chilling wind has made me numb,And the sight of despair has made me dumb.My words will die in this sea of thirst, And before I let my heart open out to burst.Listen my dear wherever you are,I wish you are hearing my voice from very far.The Sun is down And the moon is high,I just want to bid you the final goodbye.With no land near I can never hope to survive,But I am now still alive.I can see the ships and they are retreating,And Just to let you know , I am still Breathing.

Death to Love

Death comes when your heart is broken, you may live to breathe and think that you are alive.
But you are mistaken


You crave for death when your heart is dead.
At that point of time what happens to your genius head??


You know how tough it is to live, 
when you have no love to give.


Right then a tune starts to play of your loved ones.
And in that turmoil you realize you were happy once.


You start to console and fool your heart,
Unfortunately by then its tore apart.


The rain of tears drop down your eyes,
Your conscience softly says 'just say these are lies'.


The bottle of whiskey is long over by then,
The last peg you had is in your veins.


Do you look for some sleeping pills or some poison then?
Don't you even feel that's insane?


She might be partying with her friends in some pub.
Think about it , I know you are not that dumb.


You are dead and you know that,
 But what if you meet someone better at last?


The memories of your kiss on the terrace under the bright moonlight.
I know that is making you weak and you are struggling to fight.


You lost her and so you want to end your life?
She hardly cares if you die, It is not justified.


She has moved on with someone else and she laughs at your state,
That's not destiny so write your own fate.


If you love is gone and you still wonder.
You will not rest in peace even six feet under.

A letter to my Sister

 

I remember the days when i was 9 and you were 10. We fought over silly things every now and then. Those days when mom and dad took us for weekends. And look how those beautiful days have changed. You used to wait at your school gate just to walk back  home with me. And see we have grown and how independent we could be. When we used to fight for a silly pen and a new school bag. And do you see that those days were without tag. And when dad used to give 20 rs a month that you saved and i always spent. And now doesn't those savings  feel insignificant. The nights you studied and i happily slept. Is there something that we have left? Lets get down to the memories when the guava tree was the only shade. Those memories have gone blunt but will that ever fade??